Maturity

I am slowly realizing and accepting the concept of getting more by giving more.

A couple of years back - or better yet - from the day I was born, it was almost always about Me, Me and Me. I tend to be very selfish and self-absorbed, always thinking for myself. Ultimately, its what I can get out of everything. Its not bad at all to sometimes give yourself a break and think of the numerous ways to fulfill your heart's every desires. But, I never really took a break. In my book of Life, ako lagi ang Bida.

These days though, I'm turning over a new leaf. Its now that I gave much portion of the little Christmas money that I have to my family. In normal circumstances, I would have rather used bulk of it for personal pleasures such as shopping, travel, dining, etc.

Its now that my parents need financial assistance more than ever. And, although most of the time I get furious, I lend them money of course. How can you say NO to your parents?

My friends say that it will come back to you tenfold. A very comforting thought. But, I don't think of it as much now, because nothing can match the feeling you get when your family, particularly your parents, cry to you in gratitude. Gross, maybe, because I, too, hate such emotional scenes. But, you do see how you've helped them and how the "kind act" touched them immensely.

Suprisingly, in all sincerity, I am more than immensely touched.

(Hmmm... boredom has its adverse effects ah.. makes you realize things.)