Love, as I've seen and heard, can be very beautiful.
It is most precious when you see a love blossom and one that goes both ways.
It is most precious when you see a love blossom and one that goes both ways.
You get what you give.
Yet, for me, it hasn't been. It is what many fondly call Unrequited Love.
You love someone very dearly but that someone does not show any signs of interest of loving you back. It's a sad one-sided affair.
You love someone very dearly but that someone does not show any signs of interest of loving you back. It's a sad one-sided affair.
It differs from person to person, depending on how deeply in love you are or how crazy you handle it.
I am that crazy, deeply in love person and there's a pretty simple explanation to that.
My whole world revolves around that person. My thoughts continually turn to him.
Any line in a book, every movie angle and even song lyrics, I connect it to the feelings I have and to the person I want to be with.
Any line in a book, every movie angle and even song lyrics, I connect it to the feelings I have and to the person I want to be with.
Sometimes, I can't eat, sleep or even concentrate at work.
Of course, that goes without saying that I fantasize about us being together. Everyday.
And, the crazy part about it is that I firmly hold onto it even if the most miniscule of chances are nil. I know for a fact that it will never happen.
I will never get that love and attention from this person.
And, the crazy part about it is that I firmly hold onto it even if the most miniscule of chances are nil. I know for a fact that it will never happen.
I will never get that love and attention from this person.
But still, I hold on to the beauty of a love that's all just an illusion.
Again, at the risk of sounding stupid, there's a pretty simple explanation to that.
I want to make the person happy even if it hurts. I feel happy seeing this person smile. It's that smile that brightens up my day.
In a way, I forget for a short while the pain that is everyday brewing inside of me.
In a way, I forget for a short while the pain that is everyday brewing inside of me.
I make it a point to make that this person who I love is always happy - laughing and satisfied. I don't care if I'm not.
I don't have to do anything big or drastic for him. But if at all a little smile shows up and its because of something I did for him, then I am elated.
I don't care if I don't get anything in return. I signed up for this. I welcomed this feeling. And sadly, that's just a part of it. You just can't expect anything back.
All of us in this same predicament has to deal with it. If not, run away.
I don't have to do anything big or drastic for him. But if at all a little smile shows up and its because of something I did for him, then I am elated.
I don't care if I don't get anything in return. I signed up for this. I welcomed this feeling. And sadly, that's just a part of it. You just can't expect anything back.
All of us in this same predicament has to deal with it. If not, run away.
But yes, I'd do anything for this person. I'd give anything for this person. For the simple reason that his happiness is my happiness too.
I also had this fictitious belief before that with enough determination, you will get what you want in the end. Like what a popular line would say "Try and try until you succeed."
Not in love, I've learned. It's a different world. Feelings are on the line, not just mine but of others, most especially to the person that your dream guy or girl loves.
It's pretty tricky to mess with feelings so you don't. As human beings, we have to play out this game of love with decency. And, again, a simple yet severe explanation:
HE OR SHE DOES NOT LIKE YOU ENOUGH TO LOVE YOU. That no matter how far you'd go for that person you love, he or she will never look at you. You just play a cameo in his or her life.
Not in love, I've learned. It's a different world. Feelings are on the line, not just mine but of others, most especially to the person that your dream guy or girl loves.
It's pretty tricky to mess with feelings so you don't. As human beings, we have to play out this game of love with decency. And, again, a simple yet severe explanation:
HE OR SHE DOES NOT LIKE YOU ENOUGH TO LOVE YOU. That no matter how far you'd go for that person you love, he or she will never look at you. You just play a cameo in his or her life.
If you are in this situation, be ready for it. If possible, get out of it right now before it goes deeper.
It is an ache that literally pains my chest. I shed tears from time to time, at the hidden comforts of my home because you have to appear stronger than this.
That you are in control. Or that's just me.
It is an ache that literally pains my chest. I shed tears from time to time, at the hidden comforts of my home because you have to appear stronger than this.
That you are in control. Or that's just me.
My heart skips a beat for the littlest attention. But it doesn't mean anything to that person.
It is harsh but I can live with that, in a very sick sense.
It is harsh but I can live with that, in a very sick sense.
Can you?
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