Tragedy

For me, tragedy is something that I have never personally experienced in its truest sense. Sure, there were family deaths but not my immediate. Tragedies for me are those I usually hear in the news, read in the papers or portrayed in the movies.

Tsunami, lahar, bombings... and seeing your friend's fiance die in front of your very eyes.

It was such a tragedy and to tell you honestly, I'm so not over it. Those moments still haunt me. Aside from losing a great friend, I grieve for my friend who was left behind.

It was just almost a month ago. And I'm trying to be strong here, trying to live life normally -- especially for my friend who's having the worst days of her life. I still find myself crying at times. But hey, mine cannot be worse than my friend's.
Multiply 40 million in magnitude.

I never imagined that that this would happen in my life, to us. And this has taught me a lot of things. Tons of life lessons.

Life can sometimes be harsh. These horrible things happen for a reason. There are lessons to be learned here. There are stories that end and stories that continue. You allow yourself to grieve but in the end, after all of this, as my friend would say -- What are you gonna do about it?

I'd like to re-write or start my life story and go on different direction. I want to live a life that as full as my late friend. I want to be a better person. I want people to see me differently from now.

There you go. This tragedy made me really want to be nicer. A lesson that will be a prologue to a new life that I want to live.