I am not in the best emotional state. These are "down" days for me.
That feeling of depression when everything's not working out right. When everything's going against your way. When you begin to hate people you love. When fights become so nasty. When people close to you aren't there for you as much as you've expected. When people leave you indefinitely and you don't have a damn idea when you guys will see each other again. Maybe never. When family relationships becomes complicated. When the atmosphere at home is tension-filled, you'd rather not see your family. When you seldom see your real friends anymore. When you feel that friends are so so far away (well, some are really far away, physically speaking). When everything & everyone around you is changing so dramatically, its scares the shit out of you. When people cannot stand your behavior. When you feel you are detoriating as person, both body and soul. When you're not funny anymore. When people around you seem to be less funnier. When you can't laugh anymore at even the most mababaw things. When you shed a tear even as you stare longingly at your kitchen sink while you wash the dirty dishes. Worst, when you resort to drug-induced solutions to calm you down.
Nervous Breakdown.
(I really miss my sister na. She just flew to the States yesterday for good. Fuck.)
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