Adi Version 2.0

I have this phrase on repeat as status in my skype - A better version of me.

And a skype mate asked me what is it all about.

I didn't answer but let me just instead blog about it.

More than anything, it is a constant reminder to self to always strive for a better version of Adi.

I'm such a fucked up person that it would take this skype status to always tell me how to think, say, act and react.

I am an extremely emotional person and most of the time, it is to a fault.    I wear my heart on my sleeve and it is very obvious whenever I get affected with certain issues.

Now, with this constant reminder, I am fighting my emotions.  I am battling with the usual reactions that I would normally have.  It is the HARDEST, goodness, but I think I'm coping.

I have put aside of what could be my greatest asset - my emotional self -  and just be your normal nobody who does not have a care in the world.  Because I've learned that once I cared, I won't stop.  I go 100%, full speed ahead.  And if there's a bump in the road, even the smallest one, to me, it becomes a big mountain of non-sense things that play with my head.

So, I've decided, to be a better version of myself, I shouldn't care so much.

And that there are better things around that deserve my attention without beating the hell out of my heart.

Once my heart is onto something, that's it.  I give it my all.

So, yes, take out that damn heart out of the equation because it is a liability.

But just hope that the universe brings in exciting things in your life.