Monday, January 20, 2014

Yeah, that same old shit.

I'm digging a deeper grave again.

I'm giving my all again, not leaving anything for myself.  Giving and doing everything.

I know I'm a pleaser, giver, helper.  That's me. I want people to be happy because of me. Sometimes, at the expense of my bleeding heart. (Anodaw??!!)

But at some point, I have to set a limit and just stop because ultimately, I know for a fact that I'll end up getting hurt again.

Seriously, I'm in a panic mode.

Like I think I'm on my way to that feeling I once had with E and I become a crazy, monstrous person - with all the emo, yucky feelings that tend to overpower me and upset my friends.

I am panicking  and I need to do something drastic now.

Admittedly, now, I need help.

Someone, pull me up from this deep excavation of unfulfilled hopes and dreams.

Please.

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