Mixed Emotions

Ok, as most already know, I've decided to stay in PP and accept another job in another ad agency.

The last job took a lot from me, I almost died. I miss the Pinoy mafia there though. But, I have my own mafia here now although, fewer.

One thing I'm glad about now is that my boss is a Pinoy. Head of media is a Pinay as well, who was my badminton-mate also. Another one from Production is a Pinoy, who's a good friend and neighbor.

Oh, there's more. Our creative head is a Filipino, but he grew up in Australia. And lastly, one Pinoy art director.

Marami-rami rin pala kami.

You will love Pinoys when you're outside the country.

Anyhoo, going back, I was soooo ready to go home a month ago. It was like everything was not going my way and for some weird cosmic reason, everything was bad news.

I know I wanted to go home in Manila so bad as I never felt this way about work before. I never went through such misery. In Manila, I have lots of friends who can refer me to jobs. In fact, I just wanted to go home and rest and to just get away from advertising as far as possible. That's how miserable I felt.

Upon much encouragement from my Pinoy friends to stay and just take a break here, I agreed. Maybe I do need a much needed break. In my 12 years of employment, I never took a long break from work. So, why not?

I spent the last three weeks just partying, hanging out with friends, sleeping, watching TV, etc. It was the best. Loved every minute of it. But, I know at the back of my mind, I should control my spending since I don't really have a steady income coming in. Just my savings. And every penny left was just going out. Fear.

But, the universe sometimes surprises you with pleasant news. And in my case, a job. I got the news right after my stuff at home got stolen. Diba?! Yan ang tinatawag nating mixed emotions.

Maybe this IS my agency. Maybe my life wasn't meant for the previous agency. Maybe, I can stay here longer.

Maybe, I can start anew. Maybe, I'll love advertising again.

And maybe, I can shine here.

Let's see.