Hovering

February and March felt like the whole universe was (and is still) conspiring against me.

I've never been so miserable in my life. Problems after problems, sabits pile up, friends turned enemies. Sucks.

In my 11 years of advertising work, I've begun to cast doubts on my capabilities. Not good, I know. Is it all my fault? Do I suck? What would I have done differently?

All this thinking and questioning just further brings me down. It is the WORST.

I know sulking never ever gave you solutions. Problems just don't disappear. But I can't help sometimes but to feel down during these times.

I was never the quitter. I may be a lot of things, but not a quitter. Yet, the thought of it always come to mind. Is it still worth it? That is the question.

I honestly don't know. Life is much brighter now -- a bit overcast still, but not stormy dark. Maybe, it was just a phase. Maybe, it was something I needed to experience. Again, I don't know.

But like one FB status I chanced upon -- Grey skies are just clouds passing over.

So, universe, please let the sun shine on me.