Just breathe

The past few weeks were quite challenging.

The work load was so overwhelming I was screaming inside at the top of my lungs, crying for help.

A lot fell into the cracks. A lot was forgotten. Even my judgment was questioned.

Most of my team resigned for the last two months.

It was really tough.

It was hell.

Now, though, I'm slowly putting back my where my team was as I hired a couple to join. One came back and another one came from activation department.

Numbers. Now, that's a word I hate to hear. I never imagined that such a simple word would shake my world. The sound of it makes me shiver with fear. What is it with numbers anyway? In my world, it means projections. Targets. We set this revenue target every month. Every end of the month, we check how each respective team did. At this period, my team's not doing very well in terms of profit. So, I'm trying to push any projects I can squeeze from my current clients. And I am forced to wake the peaceful slumber of those sleeping and inactive clients.

I sometimes find myself talking to thin air telling myself to hang on and just finish what is required and it will soon pass.

In most times, I just go out into the veranda and JUST BREATHE. Then, back inside again.

Like now. This blog writing is an escape and I really have to go back to work.

So bye.