Am I Wilson or am I House?

When Heroes ended its first season, I turned my attention to House. In fact, I got overly addicted to the show. I am very sad now since I just finished season 3 and there's no more episodes left to watch. Will just eagerly wait for Season 4, if there's one.

Dr. House's character is quite interesting in that his approach to people is so heartless at most times but then, with the many personal issues that he has, he is at the same time all-heart. He has a friend named Wilson. He is supposedly House's best friend. They know each other very well. House is such an ass though that sometimes I pity Wilson. House does not listen to him. House is sometimes harsh to him. But Wilson stood by him. Never gave up on him. Which makes me think of Wilson as someone who's pathetic. He is also a doctor but unlike House, he is affectionate, talks to his patients in a very loving manner and very diplomatic in his ways. House, on the other hand, gives it to you straight. Its really harsh but at least you get the picture right away.

I love House because he is extremely brilliant despite his mean ways. I cringe in pa-senti/emotional moments of Wilson. I am amazed with House's detachment to these kinds of things.

But then, I get to think things over and look at how I deal with life. I am definitely emotional. I am sensitive. I am non-confrontational. I worry about how people will think of me that is why I try to be diplomatic to people. I am more and more seeing myself as Wilson. But I have always refused to believe this because I want to be House. I want to be smart as he is. I want to be brilliant. I want to be special. I don't want to be a mediocre individual with mediocre achievements.

The "kicker" question that made me accept the fact that I might be like Wilson is:
Do I want to be special and important even at the risk of losing the people close to you? The answer is a strong NO. Because no matter how great House is in the field of medicine, he tends to have more enemies and at the end of the day, he is all alone, stuffing himself with pain killers. I love my family and friends too much (sooo much) to give them up.

So I guess I'll just be Wilson. Or can I just be a good balance of both? Please?